Clueless -Crazy-Thing-called-love

          Hahaha…. first sight of the title, you’ll say it’s about boyfriends, girlfriends, crushes and anything of what you think (or so thought) about “L-O-V-E”. Why, yes! it is about love. But this love I’m going to talk about, is not the love like kissing, holding hands, intimate and everything. It’s about how you’ve been loving someone without even knowing you’ve been loving them. GOT IT?? hahaha! I discovered it because I’ve been experiencing it everywhere. In the school, home, “tambayan”(haha.. like I  have any?.), at church (especially!), and even at the sidewalk. Still clueless? I’ll give you an example. You have this friend of yours and he/she is not your (or “an”) ideal friend at all. Your ideal friend is sweet, kind, handsome, pretty, gentle, bright, and everything good. but your friend has… well… NONE OF THE ABOVE or N-O-T-A.  But ever wonder why you liked him/her as him/her?  It’s because he’s he/ she’s she. Though you may say bad things about him/her, or she/he will say bad things about you, you can just easily put it away(I know someone will object). well, maybe your mind cant but that heart of yours does. because we cant teach it. He/ she may not be your closest friend, but once you have that respect for him/her, even it’s so little, that’s LOVE. 

 

P.S: Just letting it out! just in my opinion …. 

xoxo…

A journey together with you (Travelogue)

            I was so excited that I can't even sleep. Just imagining what I would want to happen at the trip. Like for example, thinking what their reactions would be when I'll do some trick at the pool (though I don’t know any trick. just imagining). There were so many thoughts in my head that I know I can’t say it all. I prepared my stuff the night before the trip. I kept on reminding my father to wake me up early. So he set his alarm 3:00. Well, unfortunately my father didn’t hear the alarm because it was placed under a very thick pillow. So as a result he woke me up when it was almost 4:00. I was so afraid to be left behind. I was so fast that I only spent 20 minutes eating, taking a bath, preparing things and brushing my teeth. Then I got to the assembly area at 4:10.
      
              We had the rosary while we were travelling. The one thing I don’t like in vans are their air conditioner. It makes me feel dizzy and sometimes it makes me vomit. Well, having the prayer made me not mind what I was feeling. After the rosary, my sister sent a message to my classmate. She asked so many questions and when I heard it, I already knew that those questions came from my father. My father can be over protective sometimes and I understand him. He asked me things like he was an investigator. He asked the name of the driver, the plate number of the van, the colour of the van, the chaperone and where I sat. SEE! My van mates told me that they think my father was going to really get me an escort or bodyguard just to secure my safety. My father is always like that especially to my sister (sweet). My father loves us so much. He will always tell us that he would do everything just to keep us safe from harm. And I’m so thankful that he’s my father. Well, I think I’ve been talking so much about my father, let’s go back to the trip. While travelling, some of my van mates got hungry so they ate some snacks. They handed me some food but I refused because it will just make me vomit. So, I just asked for water. But, it didn’t keep me from vomiting. Lucky for me that I was able to open the window before I vomited because if I had vomited IN the van, that would surely be a very big problem. I was so embarrassed. Then I felt much better after a few minutes.

              When we got to our first destination, the Pope John 23rd seminary, it was a peaceful place and a nice one too. When we got off the van I asked the driver a rug and water so I can wipe the vomit that had stick on the side of the van. I can’t make him clean it because that would be out of respect and it’s my dirt so I’m supposed to clean it. But he refused and I didn’t make him change his mind. I just poured some water on it so it wouldn’t be so gross when he will clean it (Like it would make any difference). Some students wandered in the place. They took some pictures. The place seemed to be inside a forest. It was so humid but still you can feel the heat of the sun. The place was clean and we saw a seminarian having his exercise. I didn’t wander in the place so much. I stayed on the van. Some ate their breakfast. Well, we didn’t stay for so long. Then off we go to the next destination which is only meters away from the seminary.

uhm,,.............
I forgot much of it. So I think It'll do. But what I did not forget??
I'M SO HAPPY BY THAT TIME.


:)  xoxo....

Oh my Crush!?

            Supposedly, we should have already post our second entry before the periodical exam, but most of us wasn't able to catch up with the deadline (including me). So our teacher moved it as one of our project for the second quarter. That means?!! I have much more time to think! Our mind might just change course you know ( naks!! twilight? ), I mean, the feelings might change right? As we always say “every moment counts" (or maybe that's just me?) well, it had just happened to me. The day that my teacher told us that this will be the 2nd entry, I immediately thought of sweet things or words to describe my crush. Like handsome, smart (though he's not...), athletic (which is very true), and etc. Well, that thought made me wanna work on the 2nd entry fast. Until the day came that I was workin' on my 2nd entry with my facebook account open.

              I was workin on it. Let’s say, workin on it-"INSPIRED". It's because I was in a good mood and he was so good to me that day. And then this other guy came. On facebook!!! Well, I've got to be honest; he's very far from my crush. I mean, very OPPOSITE. He’s not handsome (I won’t say ugly. that would be very harsh), he's smart I guess? Because he's pretty good in speaking in English and he's NOT athletic. He’s very invisible. Even me, I didn’t notice him.( oh! by the way, I’ll give them code names. crush- *handyman* and other guy *invisible*). *Hahaha!! So creepy! I'm sorry, I'm not so good with these things*. Though "invisible" haven't got what most girls look for in a boy, there's still something about him that makes you like him. I thought he's a bad person. But someone told me things about him and it made me think that he's good. He’s a quite type of guy that has no interest or wanting to be known. He’s like a "go on! Criticize me!, I don’t care. I’m just living my life, don’t bother me" type of guy. He doesn’t care. But that doesn’t mean that he's heartless! He just don’t know how to express it. He’s always hiding behind his friend’s shadow. Well, so much for him, let's go back to "handyman". He’s a very courageous person. He’s sporty though he has this hobby To#Oot!! (I won’t mention it because it would be very obvious and my friends will know.) His attitude that made me lose my courage is that...is..uhmm.. .he's..... Is that he's like a GAY!! There! I said it! Especially when it comes to speaking. He's not so smart and wise. I only liked him because his a little bit handsome. And just this 1st week of September, I found out that I was so wrong about what I thought of invisible. He’s just the same with handyman when it comes to studies. He's so bad in English. awwwhh!! Huhuhu!!! What a shame.

                   These "negative" things made me realize that they are no good. And I won’t waste my time for them if that’s the case. And I hate myself because of that. I felt stupid. I was bombarded for a WEEK!!!! Keep on wondering why I ever had a feeling for them. GOSH!!! But then who am I to judge them right?! I’m not even smart, beautiful, kind and as a matter of fact I’m lazy at home! So, that just makes me one of them. I’ve been criticizing them like I was too perfect to be criticized! And I felt bad for that. It made me want to ask forgiveness to them. Having these realizations about my crush, it made me also realize how I looked at them so low. Made me realize that what I’ve been thinking, doing, saying and acting was so bad that if only they knew about these, they would really get hurt. And I don’t want to hurt them. So from now on, I’ll try to change and always look on the good side of every person I socialize with. Help them if I can help them improve their bad side. Not just stand there and criticize.

P.S. To those who already had the hint of who my crushes are, just keep quite please?!!! Hahaha!!

Until next time!!     XoXo!

-- JoYniE --

"My Autobiography"

                              My name is Joynie Angielyka Z. Ganas. I am now 13 yrs old, turning 14 on September 17, 2010. I was born at Lonucan Manolo Fortich Bukidnon. My parents are Ronulfo D. Ganas and Josie Z. Ganas. I have two sisters and one brother. They are Sweet Melanie, Royal Jazz, and Precious Queena Ganas. I love reading books, dancing, singing, hiking, playing games like soccer and basketball. My favorite foods are namely spaghetti, black zambo, calamares, fried chicken and fish fillet.

                      There are many things that my friends don't know about me. Like whose my crush. Well, some knew about it but I think there's just two of them. They also don't know that I like wearing boy's clothes. Shhhhhh!!! But Im not a lesbian okay! They also don't know that I also want to be a Director someday apart from being a Doctor.

                      I have achieved many things. But It's not so huge or great. Just like, I went to Dumaguete to join a contest but i didn't win, I just competed. Also that I sang in front of many students yet I also didn't win. But the biggest thing that I have achieved is that I graduated in Elementary and with good record. This achievements are not so great or huge. Im not the one who won, yet I won in achieving self confidence.